Sorry, Eliasson. But you know what? The harder it is right now, the more it validates your efforts. And your efforts are fantastic—that vacation would be difficult for anyone, and you did it! Great work.
The urges can be tough, but they will pass. Remind yourself that you're long past any physical craving—this is all in your mind. It's a feeling. It can't hurt you or force you to do anything you don't want to do. And it will pass. And they will diminish in the future. So hang in there. Maybe try some deep breathing exercises or go for a drive or a long walk. Have you eaten? A full belly always helps me.
Keep going. Remember why you have made repeated attempts to quit—drinking's no longer really enjoyable, not with all the consequences that come with it. You're not missing out on anything. If you drank today, how would you feel about it tomorrow? Play the tape forward, as they say.
You're doing great, really.
