how many more times.....
will i let it "just go" and move on the way things are? i'm fooling myself. i want to leave him soooooooo bad but i'm so hesitant because of finances, mental strain, and just plain tired of having to be the one who makes all the first steps. i have places to stay and people who care about me but i still feel bad for him and i worry about him. i've tried to be strong, bitter, angry and all of those things but that sappy me keeps on shining through. i'm nearing the end of my rope but i still can see that jumping off point. my hair is falling out, i've chewed off every beautiful nail i own, i eat without being hungry and my heart is always heavy. i just need to get away from this life. people get up and start over every day. what's my problem!! no matter how strong i pretend to be, i'm not.
thanks....just needed to say that and get it off my chest.....