I'm glad you're keeping your focus Eliasson
I kept convincing myself I was a heavy drinker.
In the end it didn't really matter - I still nearly died.
It was more helpful for me simply to ask myself if my drinking caused me problems - it clearly did....
whether it's fair or not is immaterial really, the fact is I could never control my drinking, my drinking controlled me, and it made sense to give up drinking.
It still does
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