I am new to this site, just as of today, and I am really not one to offer advice because I am seeking advice, but it's regarding my partner for 15 years, and husband for 14 years and father of our 2 children who are 13 and 11, so I do know one thing....if I could look down the road at our 11 month point into "where I am now" I wouldn't go through it again at ALL! It doesn't get better. You aren't married to him, so I would cut ties ASAP!