Hi again
I'm sorry...I know you're angry right now - it's rough when we look forward to something and then it doesn't happen, especially when we're trying to stay clean and sober...
But...it's really not her fault you used tho, is it?
Have you got an support to turn to when things like this happen?
I had a hell of a lot of bad things happen to me in early recovery, and because I would always get wasted when bad things happened, I had my work cut out for me to stay focused and make different choices.
A support network - whether it's a recovery group, counselling or what - people to talk to, people who appreciate how hard it is to stay sober in the early days, people who could give me good advice about how to stay clean and help me learn life skills rather than point me back to drugs and booze...all that was pretty vital for me.
try not a dwell on what happened. You made a mistake.
Try and put stuff in place so that can't happen again.
You can do this
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