welcome! I can relate a lot to your post. I drank more than you (1-2 bottles of wine a night or the equivalent in vodka).
I sense the hesitation in your post and if you look at my profile you'll see a 3 year lag between me joining here and me quitting. So I get that, too. But I do hope you'll stick around and read honestly. (I read selectively to convince myself that I wasn't 'that bad').
Don't worry about your husband. That will fall into place!