You have unlimited opportunities while he is sitting around a living room on a different continent, spanking the ole monkey, lost in drugs.
Have you considered getting some therapy to learn new strategies to value yourself? Instead of focusing on being weak, you can focus some time on getting stronger. We are all works in progress.
There are at least a million ways to volunteer your time to worthy causes. You will likely meet like-minded people of all ages who are into making some sort of positive difference in the world. Sure beats sitting around and sustaining a hopeful fantasy about a loser.
Maybe changing your screen name to replace the obsessive focus on him with taking care of yourself will help your frame of mind. How about "gettingstronger"?