broke no contact and feel like poop
i am such a weak, weak, weak person!!! i feel like 100 times worse than i did before. now i'm not just missing him and lonely, but i gave him another opportunity to see me weak and talk to me like cr&p because he knows i miss him. i feel like the biggest fool on the planet. he's the one who was doing drugs, and somehow i came out of the conversation like i was the bad person for dumping him. he's not sorry, he doesn't care, he doesn't think he has a problem, and he doesn't really want to talk to me or anyone. he just wants to sit alone in his room neglecting the puppy he bought "for us". i practically apologized, yes i am that weak and pathetic. shoot me now. i just had a really weak day.
if anyone thinks of breaking no contact, don't do it. oh god i wish i hadn't. now i am alone and totally without any self-respect!! am going to spend the day with my best friend tomorrow so i won't be crazy again.