Welcome samwitch! I could never control my drinking either. I had to give it up completely. I was slowly killing myself. I had to change. No one can do this for you samwitch. I learned that the hard way. When you want to be sober more than you want to drink...your ready. Maybe look into AA, Smart or some counseling. You need a plan and you need support.
Best Wishes To You!
Best Wishes To You!