Keep strong Tristy. Both of my parents were alcoholics, and are no longer around because of it. You think that would have stopped me. Not until now am I really serious about abstaining. Years after there passing. I am 40, and have been drinking for almost 15 years now. Bottle of whiskey everyday lately. You would never know it to look at me. I hide it very well. Even have a business, wife, kids, workout daily, and eat great. But I am losing control lately, and need to stop now. We have both new to this site, and I hope to see we are both here for a long time to come. I wish you well on your journey and please stay strong.