I can relate, Heather. I used to feel such emotions when drinking—just about any song could prompt a wave of intense emotion and profound thoughts. But you know what? Looking back those feelings were both superficial and artificial. They weren't real at all. It's like on silly comedies, when one character gets really drunk and starts telling all his buddies how much he loves them. It makes for a good scene in a sitcom, but it's no substitute for genuine feelings.
I also think my sober hours were flattened out, emotionally speaking, by all the drinking I did the night before. I was basically depressed because of all the drinking. Which of course led me to drink again, so I could lift my mood for a while.... pretty crazy, I know.
Anyway, glad you found us. Welcome to SR.
