@ angie 4
Thank you so much. Thank you for your encouragement.
I am Catholic and spoke to a priest a couple weeks back. I am so angry with GOD right now. Sad isn't it? I pray everyday for GOD to help my husband get through this addiction. I just don't understand why he hasn't answered. I feel like I have been through so much the past three years especially. Three years ago I discovered my husband cheated on me with a woman (I use the word loosely) 7 years older than my daughter. She was only 22. I received the phone call from the girl one morning when I was actually volunteering at one of my children's sporting events. The woman told me she spent the evening with my husband. I immediately went on ezpass and saw she was telling the truth. Dummy didn't not use his ezpass and the bridge toll came out of our account. Well when I confronted him he of course denied it but phone records provided me with her cell number and I called her immediately. Later I discovered he tried to end it and she became vindictive and called me. She then started calling my daughter saying vulgar things about her father. I also later discovered she shared his interest in drugs. Her interest was oxycontin and ecstasy. I read all about their sexual escapades online where she discussed what they did while on ecstasy. After three years of spiritual counseling at my church I was able to stay in the marriage. I never truly forgave him. I still bring her up. I guess knowning the drugs are what they shared and how he continues with the drugs I feel he is capable of cheating again. I do know he is looking at porn. I also saw a strange contact on his cell with an odd number. I called it and it was a singles hook up line. When asked he denied calling the number ever. Ha! Regarding the porn well his answer to that is "every man looks at porn". No they don't.