Welcome to SR, NightsWatch!
I'm glad you found us. These forums were a revelation to me—I couldn't believe how many people had been through same thing as me.
As for Napa... heck, I couldn't conceive of washing my car without a few drinks, lol. It was weird at first, and difficult, but you know what? Sober became the new normal for me, and I love it. The whole battle over trying to control my drinking was exhausting. And I knew deep down it was only going to get worse. I don't even feel like I gave something up anymore—I feel like I got my life back. I can drive anytime I want, anywhere I want. I can go a see a band, and really enjoy the music, without the distraction of trying to limit myself to "just one more drink" ("ok, maybe two more..." "heck, a few more can't hurt..."). I can not only have a conversation with friends, I can remember it—without being embarrassed. Turns out sobriety is way more enjoyable—who knew?
