Hi Shakes! I wish I'd recognized what alcohol was doing to me when I was your age. I never did, and my life turned into a living hell as the disease progressed. Congratulations on seeing what needs to be done, and taking action.
Any AA meetings I've attended I haven't felt pressured to say I'm an alcoholic. Especially in the beginning, you can just listen. It might be a good idea to try it. I hope you'll stay with us and keep posting. Glad to have you as part of our family.