I guess it just shows that even if we have a good sobriety, mental illness can take us down, in my case because I had been mis-medicated for a long time. But I'm here to tell the tale!!
Oh yeaaaa....... While I've been on anti-depressants most of my life, in my 15th year of sobriety I sank into depression so bad I literally couldn't get out of bed. For a while it's just today I don't kill myself." Then it got worse and I couldn't have even managed to kill myself. But my doctor found the right med combination and the worst lifted after a few months.