it did change, but not in the manner i had hoped. i've been praying about my relationship with my ab and was at peace knowing that, at this point, i wanted to continue standing beside him. i called him to let him know this, and his was response was that he doesn't love me "that" way. so...now, he's my xab.
while i *know* this is for the best, my heart is absolutely broken. i received a text from his mother this morning that said i was on her heart and that, while it is no comfort right now, i may be saved from years of unhappiness for me and my future children. such sad, but true, words, from HIS mom.
i. hate. alcohol.