Thanks for the welcomes everyone - I really appreciate it. It's nice to hear the positives. Yeah, I've finally come to realize I cannot control alcohol - it controls me. Monday & Tuesday will be difficult for me as I'm going to the lake with my boyfriend - there was supposed to be beer involved LOL. Maybe I will bring some non-alcoholic beer, or is that a bad idea? I've used it in the past to get through some social occasions where I didn't want to drink.
What adds to all this is that I quit smoking cigs two months ago. Now the thought of no alcohol AND no cigs - ahhhhhhhh.