UnderO
I was a pot smoker - I never liked alcohol too much - too many alcoholics in my family.
Then I got in deep and had to give pot up - I started to drink a bit...I really grew to like it, and it kicked my butt for years.
My advice is to keep walking forward - you've come a long way but you're still struggling with sobriety and you admit that - frankly I think drinking would be doubling back for you, UO - sounds like it might be a back door thing to me.
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