Reach out this weekend, and not only on the computer. I needed to have some f to f responsibility. I am very immature and I have an excuse for everything. Telling only myself that I was going to get sober, never worked for me. I had to accept my powerless ness over everything Alcohol and my behaviors . I had to have others help me. I will hold you in my meditation as the alcoholic that still suffers. Peace my friend and good luck. (()) the lush