Originally Posted by sunday
even though i dress very well, and always paste a smile on my face. i present myself well yet don't feel balanced with the world at all!
That was me. Well dressed, put together on the outside, a complete mess on the inside. That incongruence was exhausting. I remember this feeling of deep deep sadness. Now that I am sober, I still experience sadness at times, but it is not the same kind of darkness I lived with for all those years.
Dancing, music, sex, loving a partner...all those things are so much crisper and intense when sober. I have been able to experience heatpounding thrills and joy that are simply not possible to feel when numbed. I've said this before, but experiencing life without being drunk is a high in itself.
You can quit if you want to. Peace to you, sunday...