Hi Sunday, it sounds like you are starting to question the costs of your drinking, the funny feeling you get the next day, versus the fun you had the night before. It's a tough thing, to get to the point you know a problem is afoot, and that make plans to stop, stop, and then to stay stopped. But I see that spark of awareness, that tiny flame, and you can't start a fire without a spark, as Bruce Springsteen said.
"I get up in the evening
and I ain't got nothing to say
I come home in the morning
I go to bed feeling the same way
I ain't nothing but tired
Man I'm just tired and bored with myself
Hey there baby, I could use just a little help
You can't start a fire
You can't start a fire without a spark..."
Here's to that spark that helps you on your way. Maybe that spark is posting here, just keeping the idea open in your mind that quitting is possible.
Thanks for posting, and I wish you the best of luck in your path in life,
H. Pup