another evening of drinking
I am being perfectly honest with all of you and to myself especially.....yet i am going to drink tonite, just like last nite....i'm not working tomorrow so therefore i will chuck down a bunch of beer, listen to music and dance with my partner in "crime"....so to speak..he's a heavy drinker also
I just signed on yesterday, today....well, i couldn't wait to get back to sr.
Tomorrow i will let the guilt flood me with anguish, I get a bit paranoid thinking, when i go shopping for food, that everyone is looking at me in a disgusting way..that's what the good time tonite will do for me tomorrow even though i dress very well, and always paste a smile on my face. i am i present myself well yet don't feel balanced with the world at all!
oh well.......sigh....txs for listening