You are very much like Bill W. when he was a child. You're more like us alkies than you think.
I asked my sponsor when I would be at step 3. I was told that as soon as I was at step 3, I needed to work on step 4, but I had to commit to meeting for step 5. So we set a date for step 5, I was given directions for step 4 (1 day only- the day before our meeting) and we briefly discussed 3. No thought;a decision was made.
I am working on step 9 now.
Get sober & do some work. Things can change if you stop the excuses.
You can stay stopped!!