thank you all for responding and for your sincere support and prayers. you are right, things do get better with time. i still struggle with the notion of whether i made the right choice, but not nearly as much as i did in the beginning.
i find it hard to believe that it's been 6 months. i never thought i would be gone from home for this long. it is incredible to me that denial can be so strong. often i wonder if it is a choice on his part or if he is gone beyond being able to choose any more.
i wish him the best, but i know that there is nothing that i can do to make him realize what he needs to do to save himself. the whole thing is really sad and the time will tell if he will recover or sink even further.
hugs and prayers to everyone and thank you all at SR for continuous support.
love you all guys.