Thanks everybody. I don't know how to describe my life sitution other than being really negative...because that is exactly what my life is and has been for quite some time. I know that I am depressed and pretty much just not participating in life.
It seems like I just can't play the game. The "game" of life. I see so many of my peers doing great things and/or progressing their lives like establishing life-long friends, dating, possibly being married, having success in their jobs/careers. With me being so unsuccessful in these areas of life, I guess I just don't want to be around others. Almost as if I'm ashamed/embarrassed of my life and what my future looks like....bleak! It's a horrible cycle of emotions and temptation (to drink) from all these feelings and remorse.
Anyways, enough of the feeling sorry for myself stuff. I guess maybe it was just a bad day for me.