I def understand how it can get worst and worst. Since my first attempt I've had two relapses (in a row) and it just worst and harder to get on course. But its possible, you just have to really want it and work at it ...as Anna mentioned...its not "let" kinda thing. You control your mind and body and while this is very difficult to overcome it is possible, esp for 24 hours at a time. I hope tomorrow you can be proactive and use your desire to be sober overcome whatever happens in the day. Wishing you well!