Hi,
So I had some relapses when I last posted and I have had some more (one right now).
One really important thing is how I drink more on each event and I get more "lost" each time. What I mean is that I don't recognize myself. It isn't really blacking out as I do remember things, I just can't recognize myself when I get sober.
Anyway, I am drinking tonight and intend to get sober tomorrow with 9/9 being my clean date.
Please don't expect me to be "sane" tonight. I will do my best to stay on course and "let" tomorrow happen. It won't be pretty...
A chief concern I had about being online tonight was to not enabling people. I think I have managed to make "use" be not cool.
I look forward to joining you sober guys in 24 hours. I hope you all can indulge me a bit before then.
Thanks,
NewMe