Mardy, take your life back...you can. don't put off going to the doctor, go out of network to a private practice doc. where no one you know works...less chance of anyone reading your file.
your insurance should cover a good portion of private counselling for whatever the doctor/social worker puts on the file....for me, twice weekly session for 3 years cost about $15.00, less than a bottle of wine.
if you keep drinking you are going to feel worse and worse and also gain more weight. you don't say what your consumption is but you know that each glass of booze is about 150-20 calories...(empty sugar alcohol calories).
good luck and keep posting.