Yes, you are right. People here do know i drink, but the image they see of me is much different than the image only close, personal people see of me. Most people just call and think i am fun to party with when the couples go out on Friday or Saturday, it is only the close people who see me drink every day. I feel I am hurting them, too afraid to ask and trying to figure out how to continue to be the "fun" person everyone else thinks I am. I do know only your family is what is supposed to matter, then why is it that I can not react only to them?