Today is an "On" Day
And I guess by that I might on the wagon.
Which for me means that I treat myself well.
But what scares me is the off days.
It's weird to me that when I am sober for days and weeks at a time, I am healthy, active, I eat well, exercise, read and do productive things.
But when I fall off and sink into a bender, I am horrible to myself - just absolute self-destruction. Drink non-stop, eat junk or don't eat at all, sleep horribly or just pass out in random places for hours at a time.
I know it's the alcohol, but it's bizarre that both of those personalities can exist within one person - a total contradiction.
On that note, I'm gonna go out for a run!