Searchbug,
I never felt more alone and isolated than when I was involved with an active alcoholic. Today, I maybe alone but I am not lonely, I fill my days with activities that I enjoy. I surround myself with things I love.
I am no longer being held hostage by this terrible disease. You really are quite fortunate to see your ex in his toxic manner, early in your relationship. Now is your chance to embrace you. take care of you............