I am 64 years young. I will not waste one more moment of my life with an alcoholic, a drug addict or anyone who disrespects or abuses me in any way.
These are called my "Golden Years" and I will do everything in my power to make them as happy, peaceful and productive as possible.
You haven't been together long enough to even know this man, let alone love him. Time to face reality, he is an alcoholic, he doesn't have relationships, he takes prisoners.
Let go, move forward.