hi ejoshua
I'm with the majority of replies on this one. great job for taking responsibility and apologizing. I am starting to realize that part of getting out of my head is leaving the way my apology is received to the recipient and my higher power. Much like surrender, but i'm so hyper focused on surrender right now (day 16). My thoughts are that you apologized, and gave that gift to your mother, leaving behind the words of the serenity prayer to help guide you toward your next move. It's ok to be crabby but I am starting to understand that part of my own sober journey is knowing myself only with rigorous honesty. If there's a reason for the crabby sensation, i usually somehow know, even if I don't think I do. (which isn't to say that one can't feel crabby without simply feeling...crabby)
I digress. sorry....
my point is simple, though:
it's ok to be crabby. just don't drink!