I remember arguing with a professor, a medical doctor, head of an addiction recovery training school of a very prestigious Southern university, about whether addiction was a disease.
I complained that if I admitted it was a disease, where was my culpability in my behavior?
He smiled down at me and shook his head.
It took me anther decade to appreciate what he said next:
"You're doing what we call 'mental masturbation,' and it ain't going to get you sober.
I've been sober for 11 months. I admitted I had a disease in September of last year.
I've taken issue with a post here once and wrote a reply, only to see my post "quoted" and rebutted a half dozen times. I had to laugh.
I recognized it for what it was.
My way is the only way for me only, and that way is AA and NA. I only share my experiences and support and genuine concern for those posting here. It keeps me sober and it soothes the overriding need I now have to try help someone who is as sick as me, or who may be headed down the abyss I found myself.
Peace to all.