Oh, I feel terrible about that and can only say I'm very, very sorry for your losses.
Alcohol seems to have impacted your life even before you began to drink, and that brings up feelings in me I can't even begin to describe.
I am glad, so very glad, that you are choosing to cut alcohol from your life and you are not going to let it take you down. It has cost you more than enough pain already.
Congrats on Day 7 and know you can do this....all my best....