Thanks friends. This is a hard day. I think today I faced the fact that for him to enter recovery would take strength his mind and soul may not have anymore. They have been so poisoned and depleted by vodka.
This week, a friend of ours told me that he has found the love of his life. He said "Stace, do you know what its like to find that one person? The person you were meant to be with? The person you laugh with for hours and can't wait to see?"
And I thought "Yes...and I also know what its like to watch that person die right in front of your eyes...soul first." I wouldn't wish alcoholism on my worst enemy.