I'm going to tap away on my iPhone until I can tap no more. I am going to do my best to be honest.
Beulah, your post was amazing. It reminded me how hard this is. Sobriety is bloody hard work. All of a sudden you are confronted with yourself and having to live each and every moment with nowhere to escape. It is so difficult sometimes. I have really felt it the last few days. So insecure, so bored. But no, I am not bored at all. I am just being me. And the insecurity comes from my worries that my girlfriend is angry with me, fed up of my company. It boils down to being comfortable being me, that simple.
Am I comfortable being me? Can I be me, without alcohol? It is a he ask. Life is full of so many assumptions, hidden fears and anxieties. I worry about so much but now I have to recognise that it is a whole loads of rubbish and I just have to be me and back myself.
Great posts this evening! They have really helped!
Chimp!