It's a shame when a 30 month old baby can behave better than a grown man.
I'm so sorry, Moose, that there has been no peace for you.
Perhaps it's time to take a break from your toxic son, he only brings trouble when he comes and knows nothing of gratitude.
I have had that saying stuck in my head these days, I believe it originated with Oprah but it doesn't matter...but it goes something like... "We are responsible for the energy we bring to any space or situation".
I think this means that I am responsible for my own energy and I can choose peace or I can react in anger when the going gets tough.
To me that can also mean that I don't have to allow anyone's toxicity to live in my space. They can own it someplace else.
I've thought of that a lot lately and found it useful on days when I have caught myself out of sorts.
Love you lots and hope you find peace soon. Keeping you and your family in my prayers.
Big Hugs