lpnangel...my prayers are with you and your entire family. I cannot imagine what you are going through. But, I know from your posts that you are taking the right steps to stay on track with your sobriety. I wish I had words of advice for you, but I can only include you in my prayers. God will provide you the strength and wisdom you need in this moment...this situation. Lots of great advice here. Sometimes love means putting your oxygen mask on before your childs, as they say on airplanes. That can be a very hard, counter-intuitive thing to do, but it could also be what saves both of your lives.