I went to my meeting and got through my anxiety. I didn't speak but I really needed to be around someone. I can't deny that urge to go buy a pint of vodka didn't cross my mind. I pushed it way knowing full well it wasn't going to solve anything. An hour after I got home, my sister text me that my other sister kicked her out. She screamed and cried on the phone for an hour. It was most stressful. This is the kind of issues I have been dealing with for 20 years. One of my biggest short comings is putting the weight of the world on my shoulders. I am going to get through this without drinking. There is a difference now. I have God, AA, my wonderful SR friends on my side. Thank you all for your kind words.