Thank you all for your kind words and sage advice. Well, not thank you for the major anxiety I have been experiencing since reading them,
, but thank you anyway!! :-) I guess I will keep drinking, though try to keep it at low-average consumption, until I can get the medical advice and treatment. Hoping I can work that out, at least for myself, in the next week. Of course because I live in a state with junk health insurance and no medicaid options, even if I were unemployed (Oregon), I have to go to my home state, the land of treatment and social services (guess which state), do a little lying, and try to do so! Wish me well! Hoping to be in inpatient treatment by the first of the month! And again, thanks for your support! I'll be back!