Glad to see you here isaacovation, & congratulations on your 38 days. We understand what you're going through.
I was a lifelong drinker & it took about 3 mos. for the clouds to lift. I didn't have a very good attitude when I first stopped - was filled with resentment. I also wasn't under a dr's care, which would've helped. The negative feelings faded away, though - and slowly I felt myself come out into the sunshine. It still gets a little better each day.
Reading other's stories & experiences really calmed me down & gave me hope. Maybe being here will help you feel less anxious. Congratulations on wanting a better life - you can do this.