Hi beachlove! I used to wonder how I'd ever enjoy anything again without booze. That was a very twisted attitude, but one I had my whole life. I imagined everything would be huge bore without my fix. Holidays, vacations - everything involved getting numb. Now I see how ridiculous and sad that was. You asked why you feel drinking is such a huge part of vacation - I wish I had an answer. I know I spent beautiful summer days enjoying the beach as a child - no need for booze then.
I had to learn how to enjoy things in a different way. Thanks to my drinking habit, I literally didn't know how to have fun when I was sober. In the beginning, it seemed very strange - but now I'm so thankful to feel healthy & clearheaded - and no horrible hangovers.
I commend you for coming here to talk about this - you're among people who truly understand! Congratulations on your new baby
