day 11
Day 11 and feel okay but not great. Think I may have fried some brain cells during my last binge......hard to think straight and thoughts seem muddled. Attempted to go to an AA meeting yesterday, but ended up leaving before it started. Could not understand my fear of the meeting, it isn't like me. My confidence level seems to be shot and I don't know what to do about it. I wanted to get some literature and the Big Book but that went down the drain when I left. I am exercising and eating well, so really don't know what the problem is. I need to stop alienating myself from life because I know what that does for me, it leads me right back to drink and drugs.