NC
The grizzle and the struggle I get. I get a sense that you work hard and are valued for what you do. Alcohol will not make up for taking stock and seeing where you are at and what's next, where is it going etc.
I got to a stage where I did not plan for the future anymore, I was struggling on a number of levels to hang on for today, this week, this month. Life was leaving me behind as I was trying to juggle drinking and 'normal' life. Now I am day 85 I have to face up to the fact that I will need to change a lot, that I feel ill prepared to do.
I still don't plan for the future..........yet