No longer scared
It is great to be out of that "black hole." I forgot how good it feels to be sober and healthy. Day 8 has been good, I completed all the chores caused by my last binge. Took all day, but I did not mind. I had to take a bus to do my laundry, in fact I had to make two trips. While on the bus, I noticed a guy stumble on and fall while trying to find a seat. He ended up right in front of me and the smell of alcohol made me sick. It also made me sick to think that I was probably just like that a little over a week ago. I felt sad for him and glad for me. I am convinced that this "site" has given me the boost that I needed for so long, and the encouragement. Every story I read could be mine, or at least is very similar. My detox last week was so bad that even the thought of alcohol, and certainly the smell of it on the bus today, makes me feel like up-chucking. Maybe that's a good thing.