I have been you. I discovered my separated AH was cheating on me with a co-worker by checking his texts when I got the gut feeling. We have a 3 year old daughter and it kills me but you have to remember he is an alcoholic and start detaching as soon as you can. You cannot reason with him. He is not logical. I am sorry you are hurting because I have and am currently there right now, especially tonight hurting. We don't deserve this and somewhere out there is someone who will know our worth, however we must know our worth first! Keep coming and venting on here, it works and will prevent you from doing any unhealthy venting. =)