Thank you for all the help, encouragement and great ideas.
The Al Anon meeting went well. I am not religious so I am not sure about the higher power. They were working on making amends and I don't quite understand what I'd have to make amends for yet. My husband was texting me the whole time trying to find out where I was. I actually ignored him until I got home. I guess he wanted his dinner made? Not sure. I did get a sponsor who is 8 years older than me, everyone else was much older, so I hope we can relate to eachother. She is recovered for 7 years and in al anon for 2.
I am really just hoping that by the grace of God we can get back to where we were 4 years ago. Very sad.