Trying to sort it all out...
Married him knowing he was an alcholic.... (I knew better)
Loved him, and despised him...(currently ongoing)
Tried the nagging wife things for years..(didn't work)
The devasated and crying wife for years...(didn't work)
The passive and do whatever you want wife for years ..(didn't work except I was happier at times.)
The set the boundary wife...(he failed, I didn't stick to it)