Dear Bobby, I can feel your pain in your words, completely. I just want you to know that I did exactly what you did, felt guilty and definitely was fearful for many years of his killing himself with booze. what a way to live.. it's total powerlessness and humility we go thru. just think, if we put all that wonderful energy into ourselves, just think if we put ourselves first and take care of us and love ourselves..
You can read my recent posts and know no matter what - we are okay, somehow you get by and somehow life goes on and we get better....my thoughts are so with you right now...m